In your hands.
How far was it?
How bleak is it getting?
I know!
But, who cares?
They're not looking.
Conform!
Stepped in and saved the day.
I was wrong.
Wrong to conform,
To go with the current,
Like a lazy boatman,
I was going down.
The shape I am now,
Something so profound.
I don't know what's tomorrow,
But i know who holds my hand.
I don't see the extent i will go,
But I know I am in your hold.
I don't understand what comes to me,
But I know they are for me,
I don't comprehend the purpose of these,
But I know you want these for my build.
I can't look over the fence,
But I know they are for my best.
I can't predict your map,
But I know written,
I know it's planned.
I know it's great.
I know it's in your hands.
This is a personal testament of me. I was a lukewarm christian, saying lotsa vulgarities, thinking lots and lots about sex, and a lack-of-love mentallity. But Jesus, through this pastor told me that he still love me, and will forgive me no matter what i do, if i repent wholeheartedly. He told me that we will start anew. I was touched. I commit my life totally to him. TOTALLY. This is what he changed me to. This is just a beginning. Being a christian requires a moment and a lifetime. God is gonna use my WHOLE life to mature me, to build me. This is what I had gone so far. I don't know what is gonna come my way. But i know my future, is in his hands. God's hands. So far, he brought me so far. Always, he is beside me, fighting with me, taking the battle in his hands. So mant chances in my life he gave me to mature. I missed a few. This is the result of God. He changed me in the inside and outside. I don't know what lies ahead of me. I don't know what he is going to shape me to the unique me. I don't know how i am going to use my spiritual gifts, I don't know how am I going to fully manifest these gifts to serve the body significantly. But so far, for one year, 3 months, I can trust him. Although my life ain't very smooth, but it ain't screwed up. There is a difference. I can trust him. What lies ahead of me is in His hands. I trust him, i believe him.
