the preface
Ive always needed to write it down. My story of bboying. How it began. But more so, how it revived and became the life it is to me today.
It wasn't always like that, feeling passion and connection to this dance, this movement. It wasn't always enjoyable, in fact in the past it was more unenjoyable than it was enjoyable. Some point in history, the the rate of learning and dopeness tapered off. Practice became a chore, something I was more happy to avoid than to embrace. Once in a while, some passion and uninterest would surge back and there I was breaking again.
Most of my years spent in bboying were.. how should I put it, frivolous, unthought, casual and lazy. Today, it is.. frivolous, unthought, casual, in a very different way. And I am definitely crevices less lazy than I was back then. It is my character and energy in sync with bboying, directed in a positive way.
But this change did not occur out of the blue. It wasn't the case of getting an airflare suddenly and ignited my passion all the way till today. It wasn't anything like one day God decided to alter my mind like in "The Adjustment Bureau" and WTFBBQ, passion re-ignited.
It was a combination of events and things happening in my life. Decisions, knowledge, and some much needed help from my boys in Kyensai.
I don't know if it was supposed to be like that, or that God wanted to be like that, or that we fucked it up such that almost 4 and a half years must pass for this change to happen. I won't say that 4 and a half years are needed to wake me up, but it was a period for without which, I would not have known so much about myself. All of us go through tribulations, tests, or events which can potentially shape us. For some, it is terribly obvious. For others, it takes time to realize. Maybe I was lucky to have something like this as a part of my learning journey.
The good news is, the journey has only just started.
Bad news exist as often as you would find a treasure chest in your living room coming home from school.
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