discontented
With God in focussed in my life again, i'm so much more fufilled. He is the one that get me motivated to do alot of stuff. The reason i've found meaning, the reason i can give love and express love. My life is really whole.
But something recently clicked on my feelings. I feel fufilled, full, content. But i'm not content enough. This life, the one i'm living now, i'm not contented, although i'm really very grateful for it.
A life not significant for God. A life doing so little for God. Hardcore, with the heart, not with the action. I wanna do more things for God. I wanna do more tangible things, express and present myself. i wanna be a hardcore christian.
oh and another thing. i wanna help the ncc(sea) unit out of the shit its in right now. i feel bad.
Labels: heart
