2008
i havent much time nor desire to write about what happened so far this year, but the resolutions ive set to achieve had failed. quite miserably actually. but thats short of the point.
aside resolutions, aims, plans, and goals are things life throw at you along your way. it's hard to fix aims and goals to set the direction for the year ahead. though important, there are the thousands and millions and billions of laughs, sai kang, joy, fits, rage, feelings of dejection bla bla bla one encounters as to set out to achieve these goals. as for such, one must not be totally fixated on pursueing his or her goals.
but that's not my reason for falling flat on the face. it's after all, a journey for you to decide, a journey where there's a balance of teaching and self-learning, responsibility and inner conflict.
as always, 2008 had been an eventful year for me, of course majorly cos of the exams. (a few days ago i dreamt of myself having to study chinese a2 all over again cos the exam papers didn't make it or something). it also witnessed the entrance of a few people into my life, i mean, T.I.P list. the voice that goes "grow up" speaks softly now, but the urge to mature swells exponentially. i somehow always see myself as a student.
before this year ends i will have to write a thanksgiving post, which is, literally, thanksgiving. and to acknowledge events and shit and hurdles and heartbreaks and disappointments and achievements by toasting to each and every single one of them. its funny but its my self-made custom to commemorate life's memorable, both the pleasant and the horrible moments, all the right and wrong decisions.
so how should i end this post? i feel flashbackish. or, as if i've neared an end. it's an end in many ways. end of my formal education, the long long break from studies which i will sadly lose contact with many of the friends i see around for years. its losing people in the TIP list, praying you'll see at least some of them again and hope they hadn't wasted themselves after 2 years. still a point of time while waiting for my results, uncertainty which contrasts the certainty of formal education.
and next time when we grow up, we'll sit in the car with our kids beside us and tell them "cherish your schooling days for it's the best times".it was really great times.
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