the superficial judgement.
jus came back from school, had dinner n shower. v lil homework due rite now, so i can b slacker today :)
typing wifout my bruised index finger now. feels realy weird man.
kenneth talked about repentance today. about totally letting go of your past to live free once again. and i look at myself.
sometimes, i have been putting myself into bondage, bondage of utmost worry, of lust (tho its gone alr :) ), of the past. putting myself in bondage of something that sorts of becomes a barrier to me for being a christian. I remember that i'm free in Him. Christians are all meant to be free. Free from bondage and the damnation of sin (i don't mean free from sin). But what have we gotten ourselves into? time and again?
Go to school. As you enter the front gate, the "weird" dude ('outcast') in your class greets you with a smile. you greet him back. start talking to him about school, yesterday, today, tomorrow. Then 2 of your classmates approach. As they come, you stop being friendly towards him. You give him one-word answers. Your sentences become words, your words form up your thoughts of "how will they look at me?" Your classmates walk by. The "weird" guy asks you "so, what homework is there to pass up?" You pretended not to hear, pretended to clear your throat, pretended to tie your laces, pretended to mend your uniform. You look over the shoulder. They are 20 meters behind. Then you answer him "huh?" you well know you heard him.
Sometimes im guilty of that. double-faced. double-hearted. This is one of the most common bondages we Christians get ourselves into. Sundays are "love your neighbors as yourself". All the rest, "big brother[s] is[are] watching". In fact, we all are guilty of that before. But always remember that not one of us is perfect. you have your flaws, i have my flaws. one day you find out that the "weird" dude is a christian, and then in heaven, he's the one having the last laugh. Just because one guy doesn't act like, or doesn't look like the majority, and even if everyone is treating him as a "weird" kid, doesn't qualify him to be treated they way he is. That certainly does not qualify any, not one of us to look down, to shun him. God's gonna shun you if you do that.
Why? Why do we think we're so perfect while we have nothing, we are nothing in his sight? Why do we assume we are the 'normal' people just by comparing with the superficial human reasoning? Why do we judge everything by our eyes, or by what little we know, without even bothering to know more, know the truth behind all the name-calling, shunning, bullying?Labels: christian-bboy, ilovemebutGodlovesmemore
