every man
So what does it take to truly say that you have cared for your friend? Again and again we have realized that we have failed to live up to the prime examples we beheld, coming short of expectations we have for ourselves as pals of your contemporaries.
This is a statement hilighting my hypocrisy.
I have never cared for my friends for a very long time. Ever since... man thats so long ago. Months of solicity, bla bla bla.
I have constantly tested them.
I have constantly failed to tell them my most honest feelings.
I have constantly failed to give them true advice.
I have constantly failed to be available for them when they needed someone.
I have constantly enforced radio silence so to not get into their sticky matters.
I have constantly assumed things would fix themselves so I could have some rest.
I have constantly failed to enquire for their souls.
I have constantly failed to account for their actions.
I had not really cared, and in fact do not really care for anything at all. How come had I suddenly become this? Maybe this requires some mental strength for me to think and remain on track, to even show basic care for others even if I am irritated, ignored, angry, horribly tired, disoriented, dispersed, disintegrated.
Damn, this will not do good. This will not.
Labels: friends n loved ones, friendship, God
