exams prom and everything
Finally i had a chance to blog although it cant be long cos im going off soon.
So much happened the past few months. too many to say, too verbose to be compacted, too detailed to be summarized, too precious to deserve a short 2-paragraph footnote.
Worked like damn hard the past few months. From 28 in midyrs to 34 raw in prelims, and hopefully, a very good score in the IB. Had loads of fun hanging around with friends, or rather, friend (thanks victoria haha). Hadn't much impression till the last few days before the exams cos everyday was just kinda like studying.
After exams was the funny part. I was like thinking where the hell to hang out. Ended up playing 2.5 hours of tennis then doing drinkning at night.
Nothing much to talk about la. Oh then there was prom. I didn't prepare much for it, just went to shop last minute wif Victoria's family (cos i cant enter robinsons -.-) for a shirt. I love the shirt :) it's a mild-striped shirt from Thomas Smith. The day itself was fun, if not for someone losing his wallet -.- :\ :( But well, its kinda settled already ba.
But what's left after all these aside from content and the knowledge that you're going to do well for the exams is tinged with regret and reminiscence. Regret that you didn't do enough. Regret that you took a step back. Regret that I did not go after. I do sometimes start to regret following my conscience, i do look back and think how could it have been. Why did i step back when everything is so damn obvious? I can't stop thinking about this and can't get it off my head. I would have to stare at my actions and question the fact of why must this be an amalgam of resolve and regret. I must have been a real dense and dumb guy. Or perhaps I'm not, or is it a test of time, or is it a reminder that i can't always trust my inner voice, or is it a prayer spoken, marred by my own flawed, overly precarious, jaded perceptions?
God knows.
Well, I've gtg for a lunch with friends now. AND IM LATE :(
Labels: exams, mistakes, school
exams
Although, to me, they are just measures of your ability at a stipulated point of time, they have now become meaningful. The process of working for it is just damn fun.
The Diving Bell And The Butterfly, by Jean-Dominique Bauby. An autobiography recalling his recollections, recording his very thoughts. A former editor of the ELLE magazine, Bauby was struck down with a stroke, resulting in the "Locked-in syndrome", was trapped within a diving bell, with no other ways of comminication save his left eyelid. But with this protective skin, wrote a 139-page long book recording the thoughts in his mind. Like a butterfly, he was free from physical bondage, unbound from bed-riddance, explores the ends of imagination and timeless hope. A book showcasing jadedness of human existence, rich in hope for the disabled, yet nonlacking in on its timeless message of hope, love, and the will to live - the efforts, determination, and perserverance of he and the team is nonpareil. Albeit his seemingly hopeless condition, this book is saturated with torrid passion for life.
Labels: books, exams
physics paper
BALLS.
DAM.
ONE CARELESS MISTAKE.
AND GETTING 25/30 IS NOTHING TO SETTLE FOR.
IM REALLY REALLY REALLY GNA OWN PAPER 3.
Labels: exams, school
Things in my head right now right then
It's extremely hard for me to keep the 1900 calorie diet. I overshot to 2100 today.
I had just finished editing my econs IAs, what thought will take me an hour actually took three. Well, it's all worth the effort.
What's going on the next few weeks is: testimonial self-write, world lit, ioc preparation, STUDY (NOW).
I am extremely pressed for time. I have to resort to extreme measures to FORCE myself to study more now. Rather do an extra 2 hours per day now than suffer in the dreadlocks of last-minute work, as if this is not last minute enough, I cannot rest on the laurels of "4 more months". M'balls man, as if this is enough time.
Dance! coming up too! this is something i really want to press 100% for. And there's like props undone? And I'll be glad to help, for this' the only thing, besides the sharpness of the moves, that I can contribute to the club.
I must come up with a detailed plan (detailed planning is not something I ever followed strictly before but now i haven't choice.) to split time between work, reading and dancing. This constitutes waking up 2 hours earlier and compromising myself to tight situations where i can't do anything but study.
NEVER be like me, year 5s.
Labels: dance, exams, exercise, school
common tests
If one were to look at the mistakes of the math paper, he would die laughing.
Im thinking of posting them up.
Labels: exams
Sunday's com
Sunday's com for crew. All the best kyensai! We did good practising today, and yes they improved lots man.
Today was the last day of exams. But it seemed ages away. The best part is that I had nothing after exams, no1 to hang out with, NOTHING. It was superboring thank God weiyang accompanied me, played soccer, got allergic reaction with some plant poison, volleying from 20 yards out. Well, it always it happens to me, that I somehow have no plans after exams. Funny thing is, Song also had nothing, and I didn't ask him out to chill -.-
So just wait for the results and pray the sky don't collapse.
Labels: exams, friends n loved ones, solitary
study traveller
I've been resorting to traveling, or placing myself in unfamiliar territories as a self-imposed measure to make sure I study. It's damn effective, but with the great cost of
boredom and feeling like an gong -.- Nonetheless, if one's kind to ignore these side-effects of 'nomadism', I actually find some things quite interesting, took a few photos along the way.
Recently, I've found a method to curb my nomadic measures. Study with the window open. yes i know it sounds damn stupid, but it's an effective way :) but only when mum's not using the com (cos her room has the most ventilation). That means, it leaves me with not a large window of time to study in these controlled conditions. Whatever it is, thank God I love exploration and sight-seeing, though the best of the concrete jungle isn't very picturesque.
Date: 13 Jun 2008. It was after some event, I forgot which, and I decided to go queensway, the whole idea came to a mess when I decided to go town RIGHT after queensway :| And I was waiting for 14, and I saw this middle aged short dude (shorter than me, HA.) in front of me with TUMOR calves. It just attracted my attention, cos his ankle looks small, and his achilles's tendon is also of decent size, but again, his ankle bones are small.
Date taken: 21 Jun 2008. After studying with Clarissa, I went national library to read and borrow books till they close. After which, I decide to take a huge detour home by bus 61, using the time to study. However, the bus, the lights, and the population were too forgiving on the wrong days :( So I stopped at Vivo and decided to go to the rooftop not only for the scenery, it's also cos i want to visit a friend of mine. But well, his business hours are over and so I decide to settle down to study.
The rooftop is FULL of couples, kissing, hugging, I love you, you loves me, theeloves. I expected it but it makes me feel like the
abnormal person. I am, indeed the anomaly.
Date taken: 28 Jun 2008, Bedok. Yes call me eccentric, I took 14 from queenstown all the way to tanah merah, a 90 minute bus ride. Lots of time to study, steep sloping chair, and a extremely slow sunset, kindling the acceptable quiet, comfortable feel in the bus with enough privacy. Anyway, I missed the last stop and had to get off IN the interchange with the bus parked. After walking around finding a place to fill, I found these 2 stalls. Both stalls are recommended by food channels, newspapers, but somehow everyone's purchasing from the stall.
THE BANDWAGON EFFECT was the first thing that clicked in my head. But on the other hand, the chicken rice is REALLY good. It's called great east chicken if i'm not wrong.
Date taken: hours after the previous photo. This one is very notable. A car stopping 5 meters ahead of everyone at the traffic junction.
ANTI-BANDWAGON BEHAVIOR. It's as if he's the safety car, or race leader... I don't know I was just figuring out names for the honda as I pass.
Tomorrow is chem and math. Balls I think i'm kinda screwed for math. And I dono how I'm feeling about chem. Well. YUAN HAO ITS LATE. still blogging at 0090 hours!
Labels: exams, school
ac n chem
Today I met Alistair Chew on my way home. So i missed a few buses as we ended up talking for about 15 minutes. He was out on his routine walking trips, for he "loves to walk". Was asking him about life, what he did for a living (which is providing tuition), and of course, his pHd thesis. Well it's going to be in a few months when we will hear "Dr. Chew" instead of Mr. Chew. Haha. Such a brilliant guy deserves a doctorate man.
Yes, and that's him, the guy in brown with a haversack, i know it's not so clear cos I took it on a moving bus, with a loud click that attracted numerous stares. Looks as cheerful as before, now with a wider face, which, he explains, is due to the increase in smiling, thus training his cheek muscles. Oh man I have to say his hair was SCHOOLBOI. Yes you don't get to see much of those nowadays.
Oh a lighter note, chem was fine actually. Yesterday I said how I'm doubtful in my abilities to get a acceptable, or decent grade by my standards. But on a darker note, ENGLISH IS SCREWED. Damn. All I really hope is to get a 15 for this paper, which is damn hard to get cos of my really insufficient revision. English Paper 2 is the paper I felt I'm going to die. Screw it. Do the best you can.
Back to studying,
Bon Voyage, yh!Labels: exams, friends n loved ones, screwed
chem
Chem paper is tomorrow and I'm doing
ENGLISH -.-. And I don't feel good about chem at all. The only paper that made me feel this way, for reasons unknown, maybe I didn't do enough but well this' the first time I felt that feeling in a long long time. So I pray well I will do well for tomorrow that's the only thing I can rely on :)
Bon Voyage yh!Labels: exams
Date: 13 Jun 2008. It was after some event, I forgot which, and I decided to go queensway, the whole idea came to a mess when I decided to go town RIGHT after queensway :| And I was waiting for 14, and I saw this middle aged short dude (shorter than me, HA.) in front of me with TUMOR calves. It just attracted my attention, cos his ankle looks small, and his achilles's tendon is also of decent size, but again, his ankle bones are small.
Date taken: 21 Jun 2008. After studying with Clarissa, I went national library to read and borrow books till they close. After which, I decide to take a huge detour home by bus 61, using the time to study. However, the bus, the lights, and the population were too forgiving on the wrong days :( So I stopped at Vivo and decided to go to the rooftop not only for the scenery, it's also cos i want to visit a friend of mine. But well, his business hours are over and so I decide to settle down to study. The rooftop is FULL of couples, kissing, hugging, I love you, you loves me, theeloves. I expected it but it makes me feel like the abnormal person. I am, indeed the anomaly.
Date taken: 28 Jun 2008, Bedok. Yes call me eccentric, I took 14 from queenstown all the way to tanah merah, a 90 minute bus ride. Lots of time to study, steep sloping chair, and a extremely slow sunset, kindling the acceptable quiet, comfortable feel in the bus with enough privacy. Anyway, I missed the last stop and had to get off IN the interchange with the bus parked. After walking around finding a place to fill, I found these 2 stalls. Both stalls are recommended by food channels, newspapers, but somehow everyone's purchasing from the stall. THE BANDWAGON EFFECT was the first thing that clicked in my head. But on the other hand, the chicken rice is REALLY good. It's called great east chicken if i'm not wrong.
Date taken: hours after the previous photo. This one is very notable. A car stopping 5 meters ahead of everyone at the traffic junction. ANTI-BANDWAGON BEHAVIOR. It's as if he's the safety car, or race leader... I don't know I was just figuring out names for the honda as I pass.
