what's with the coldness?
A walk down the corridor is enough for your senses to tell who's pretending to not see you. It's not for any particular reason that you're unwelcome, but it's the fear of being warm, being nice, or even taking the risk to say hi.
Last time I used to be like that, when I was still the more uptight, conserved person, till I thought that the behavior is very stupid. Whyfore pretend yourself not to know that person when you actually do? So I made a point to be nicer, to smile more, to loosen up more, to be more sincere, more warm to people around me. It's not the easiest to accomplish, as an inner voice will bug "why do it when no one is doing it?" But well I insisted on going on, remembering others' birthdays, smiling at them and looking at them in the eye as much as possible. Things did turn out for the better, things did change.
But really, on hindsight, what's with this coldness? What's with this uptightness and unwillingness to be welcome? Why so serious? (lol) Is it a Singaporean trait? I have an American friend who gave me very different accounts of life in America, where it's less staring and avoiding, a overall more relaxed and welcome atmosphere (and mind you he's an Asian immigrant). You walk up to someone here and greet "good morning", more likely than not, he will stare at you for 3 seconds, thinking "
WTF DO I NOE HIM?!" before giving a half-warmed, half-awkward smile. Well, it's true that some people are quiet and more cooped up, and that's their nature and its nothing wrong. But what I mean is the coldness, not the quietness, the uptightness, not the conservativeness. Warmth doesnt just originate from the more friendly and talkative person.
I believe it all starts with yourself. I realized the uptightness everywhere and decided to put out a conscious effort to stop myself from being uptight and make myself more welcome, less intimidating, look less intimidated and stuff. Not the easiest things, cos' I sometimes need to inform myself, but it really brings out results.
Labels: findings, school
nightmares
My family members are talking about nightmares now. Well, about suiciding, getting chased, getting killed.
Anyway, aside that, here is the graph of a successful resistance to a certain desire.
It's true for certain things here. T1 denotes the moment when you made your decision to avoid, to control your desire for something. Let's say, your desire to know this person. Then after which, your desire for that thing, or that person, goes negative, an escarpment to a deep, seemingly irreversible drop. This thing is quite true of crushes, or like a person who tries his best to abstain from falling for the other one.
If his will is strong, or if God is on his side, he can successfully turn the tables. However, this drop may be dangerous as it may be caused by persistence of one to find fault in the other, to see every undersirable thing in another person, or object. While this isn't too bad when the other object is not a human, but it's definitely detrimental to the friendship of 2 persons if one were not to control his own will to find everything undesirable in another person.
Over time, however, the person begins to forget about the other thing, and begins to see his folly through his self-made efforts to find faults in the object. Thereby, casting the object out of his most conscious mind. He begins to walk away, instead of flee, begins to look at that object like any other object in the world. If it's a person, so it be a person that meant no meaning to him anymore.
Labels: findings, human behavior
quizes
I took a few quizzes just now on www.quizilla.com, and some were really accurate and revealing, some were a bit the unpredictable. Results as below (taken from different quizzes):
Emotional Complexity (how emotional are you?)
You are a very emotional person. Your feelings seem to vary frequently. One minute you can be hot and fiery the next you can be cool and aloof. Your adjustable emotions keep everyone on their toes.
Your not over him! (are you over him?)
You really should get over him! If its over its over! But then again I kno how hard it can be to get over your ex especially if you you were really in love! But try your hardest. Unless you havethis make-up break-up scene then you just need to stay together I mean come on! It gets reallly annoying! I know because I used to be in that kind of relationship! But now we are together for good!
My opinion: I was stunned at the results. Jaw-dropped, gaping mouth.
Fall (what season are you?)
You are fall. You are very self-reliable. You do things by yourself. You also enjoy peace and serenity. No matter what happens, you're the responsible one. you can survive even if there's no one there. You are very responsible and you like to go an spread!
You have the power to become a Shadow! (which superpower do you have?)
Cunning, smart, sneaky, usually the brains of an operation, you are usually on the quiet side and prefer to observe rather than interact. You learn by listening in to conversations and are able to blend in anywhere. Darkness is your natural element and you feel at home in it.
ICECREAM SANDWICH! (what sandwich are you?)
You are an icecream sandwich, congratulations. You are an odd person, and perfer cold, dark places. You are not a very happy person, and have a few close friends. Like an icecream sandwich, you are not easily accepted by regular sandwiches/people and are hard on the outside, but soft on the inside.
I found the second one very stunning, and the first one not being very accurate. But for the rest are quite cool. Some options are damn funny, some quizes aren't really true and conclusive, i just posted 5 results. Well its up to you guys to see if i really measure up to what the ruler.
Labels: findings
Majors
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What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3)
created with QuizFarm.com |
| You scored as Theater You should be a Theater major! Like a bohemian actress, you are seasoned and
confident and not afraid to express yourself!
Theater |
| 92% | Mathematics |
| 83% | Art |
| 83% | Sociology |
| 83% | Dance |
| 83% | Philosophy |
| 83% | Psychology |
| 83% | English |
| 75% | Linguistics |
| 75% | Anthropology |
| 75% | Journalism |
| 67% | Chemistry |
| 58% | Biology |
| 42% | Engineering |
| 42% |
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I'm surprised by the "theater" major, cause i'm not exactly the one who isn't afraid to express myself at all, save for my erratic spikes.
I'm actually a shy guy, and can't really picture myself in theater. Well I may be a jack of all trades, but never good at any of them.
Labels: christian-bboy, findings
It's true for certain things here. T1 denotes the moment when you made your decision to avoid, to control your desire for something. Let's say, your desire to know this person. Then after which, your desire for that thing, or that person, goes negative, an escarpment to a deep, seemingly irreversible drop. This thing is quite true of crushes, or like a person who tries his best to abstain from falling for the other one.
